February 2011
walking and venting with someone i DONT feel out...
during break, i suddenly felt really outcasted. i went to christian and he saw that there was something wrong. i hugged him and temporarily cried it out. i needed that. thank you Christian. what would i do without him.. in piano, i needed to play my emotions out so i played something quite pretty. at one point, i didnt know gabriel was listening. he clapped when i finished haha. that got a smile...
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When any male friend messages you first (it's a...
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Day 2 of 30; Who are you? In comparison to who you...
Right now, I’m just really lost. I always feel like I want to be really good friends with a lot of people, I have a big selection. But I don’t really do it. I see I have potential but I don’t know. That’s why I’ve felt out of place at school recently. I seek comfort from Christian, so I am pretty dependent when it comes to dealing with things. I do think I have a...
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I love our little walks that we take sometimes.
I can vent and open up to you more. Just talk, ya know? Yeah. (:
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The feeling of getting water out of your ears...
January 2011
I IM someone the very SECOND they log offline.
OMG. MAD. I needed to ask them something too! I also feel devastated. Can I cry…
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I hate feeling like I'm copying something. I...
I just hope it will help myself become a good person. Day by day.
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When your handwriting is very nice and neat...
You, are not what it takes to make or break me.
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Wearing something that makes you feel lovely and...
You know what hurts the most?
kims-world:
The fact that you mean more to me than I mean to you. I don’t think I even mean anything to you at all. You don’t show that you care about me or that you even like being around me / talking to me. I put a lot of effort into our friendship yet you don’t even try to keep up a simple conversation with me.
A-FRIKKIN-MEN.
Damn I hate it when someone suddenly stops...
Way to make me feel like a boring person.
:)
I’m tempted to put a status on Facebook saying
Like this status and I’ll rate you on a scale of 1. That way, you wouldn’t know if I think you’re ugly or stunning.
:)
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Falling asleep on a couch while watching TV at...
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Something... or rather someone that makes me...
Friends who do small subtle things to indirectly make you smile and laugh.
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It makes me sad but also happy when a close friend...
Oh my gosh. Look outside. It's getting sunny. I...
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Day 1 of 30; What happened today? If it was the...
Since it is only 12:24 in the afternoon right now, I’ll count in last nights events as well… I had just finished opening Mother Nature’s monthly gift. Kelly encouraged me to sing… AJ Rafael songs. I laughed. My self-esteem was at a high point. I exercised and got energetic in the coolness of the night before the rain falls. I played Nerf football with Kelly. I felt pretty....
Deep Thoughts 30 Day Challenge
heckyeahtumblrchallenges:
1. What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, how satisfied would you be with your final hours?
2. Who are you? In comparison to who you used to be. What made you change?
3. Where have you been spending your time lately? Three/Five/Ten years ago would you have expected to be there?
4. What do you think it means to be in love?
5. Pick a song that...
I wish I had a period, just so I could realize how...
it feels fucking great.
NOT TO MENTION THAT I ALSO FEEL PRETTY RIGHT NOW.
I LOVE THIS SATURDAY.
i love the way this terribly dull week ended....
i woke up tired this morning. but i didnt have to get up and get ready. i just laid there. last saturday, i got up at 7:45 since i was at morgans house. earr-lyyy!! i went to piano and then grandmas house. i just played piano and came up with a new song. i really like it. its even stuck in my head! i suddenly feel more.. connected to piano. i ate 3-4 scoops of mint chocolate chip ice cream! mmm....
tremendous trust and opening up to people....
i ate two bananas this morning… wendy, christina, and i finished our poster. in pe, i plugged in my earbuds and ran. ran ran ran.. i was so frikkin tired. it felt like there were tight ropes around my calves. it wasnt that i had trouble catching my breath. i was actually fine with that.. but my calves and legs felt like hell. after the 6th lap, i gave up. and ill tell you that i have never...
intellectualslang:
pragyamon: Won’t go home...
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I have to eliminate all wants, all desires, all...
I hate when I think I see a guy staring at me out of the corner of my eye… and I try to resist the urge to glance at him and when I look at him, he’s looking somewhere right around me but now he’s looking at me too and I turn away as quickly as possible… UMMM.
I love when you meet someone and you find...
Best thing ever.
there is nothing to look forward to.
i really like to play singles in badminton. i played with priscilla and we were going back and forth and running around. it was really fun. i felt left out in piano. i dont know. i was just practicing Kiss The Rain and Scarborough Fair. i shared my chocolate croissant with christian. it was my lunch. i toasted it that morning for him but i realized in the car on the way to school that i forgot to...
I hate it when family members ask if you're...
Can. You. Not.
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I don't know about you but I think he looks nice...
“Others are my main concern. When I notice something of mine, I steal it and give...”
– Shantideva
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Constantly.
I’m constantly paranoid that the love someone has for me is only a fraction of the endless love I have for them. I’m constantly thinking that I don’t matter to them as much as they do to me. I’m constantly worried that I’m valued horribly less than I value them.
I’m constantly imagining what it would be like if they actually showed how much appreciation they...
If I can't find any of my best friends at school,...
Lost AND a loner.
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I miss having one of my girlfriends everyday..
I admit it….
Now that I no longer go to school with them, I realized how much I miss telling Megan all my dreams and every single thought that ran through my head. She listened and she cared. She was interested and replied. I talked to her about my problems, such as parents, boys, stupid teachers, dumb peers, etc. I miss that. Everyday, in the early morning, walking to school in the bitter...
an okay wednesday.
this morning, when my uncle was dropping me off at school and we were going through that one small drop off zone road, there was a group full of “newfags”, as christian calls them, and ricky was among them. ew i hate that guy! it was a whole swarm of people i disliked. theyre annoying. they were slowwwllyyyy crossing the road. in my head, i was shouting for my uncle to just run them...
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Your thoughts, actions, feelings, dreams... may...
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I'm so sensitive.
As I pulled down my folder and pulled out a slip of paper to write a quote for Christian as I’ve been doing everyday for over a week, I sighed. I have slightly lost the pure satisfaction in doing this. Then I whispered to myself,
Do it for the joy and for the smile on his face, Vivien.
Omg why do I feel like tearing up.
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“What’s in it for me? What do I get for helping others?”
– Stephen Colbert, from Comedy Central’s The Colbert Report (via yamagiwa)
french vanilla glade and the feeling of...
in english, ms. garcia offered to give 15extra credit points if we acted/ read aloud our monologue. i really needed it. i wasnt gonna at first. after breathing and nervously looking at my friends, i decided to go outside to read and practice. kevin, justin, wendy, bruce, jeffrey, and sarah went out at first. then sarah left! omg. i went first. i got some good feedback. :) my tone was mostly angry,...
Altruistic
jamswellzumel:
al·tru·is·tic
–adjective
1. unselfishly concerned for or devoted to the welfare of others ( opposed to egoistic).
when you get that awkward shiver.
magicallydelirious:
and you’re like
ygwhdj YES
omg because this made me LOL.
what a moodkiller.
omg @ the kid who thinks something the teacher says is funny and bursts into a short laugh too loud while the whole class doesnt care and finds nothing amusing and then he realizes it wasnt even funny. so HA! in pe, we started badminton. im liking this a lotttt better than wall climbing. christian gave me apple juice after break. it didnt quite taste like apple juice but it kinda did. in piano, i...
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I hate it when someone gives me a lightning fast...
I’m just standing there with my arms floating in the air thinking, “Wtf bro you didn’t even give me enough time to react and give you a hug back. Where’s my long, damn meaningful hug?”
Hugs that feel like they barely happened are nothing.